Fandom: Guiding Light
Disclaimer: I wish Olivia and Natalia were mine but they aren't *sigh*
A/N: So who's POV am I writing? ;) Enjoy!
I see her in the distance walking towards me, she looks up. A smile lights her face and her eyes twinkle merrily. I look down quickly, shyly. I overcompensate by waving.
All these fears, all these unknowns. How far do I allow my heart to travel outside of my chest before it's lost, before it's in her hands and out of my own? It all boils down to trust. Can I trust her with my heart? It doesn't really matter anymore. She has it. My heart made that decision long before I even understood the question. Her eyes cut through me like glass. Her smile does things to me I can't even articulate. And if I could only hear one sound I would choose the sound of her voice as she laughs.
She owns me.
It's scary, the loss of control. I can see the fear reflected in her eyes. That look comforts me because as scary as this is I know she is with me. I possess her heart as surely as she does mine. Fear seems like an old friend now, not an enemy. Because now we can share our fears with each other. It's no longer a secret hidden behind our friendship.
Being with her is worth the fear, the loss of control, the whispers and the looks. For one kind word, for one sideways glance, for one stunning smile, it's all been worth it. Now if only I could touch her, run my fingers through her hair, kiss her and taste her..
I wish I was brave enough to simply reach out, but bravery aside soon I will become completely desperate for her. She sets my body on fire with the simplest of gestures. I wonder if she knows how she affects me. I wonder if I affect her in the same way.
So I wait. We began stretching that cord a long time ago and I know neither of us will ever let go. Eventually it's going to snap. Eventually I'm going to snap, and when I do she will know the full force of my passion for her and I hope to God she doesn't run.