Fandom - Guiding Light
Pairing - Natalia/Olivia
Warnings and/or Spoilers - Spoilers for the June 1st week. Reader Beware!!! And angst.
Summary - Natalia tries to find the reason. One-shot
Rating - PG
Note - A companion piece to 'Roads'. Venting done. For now. [lol]
God didn't leave her, even when it felt like she was dying.
There have been so many times when Natalia thought she might finally breakdown and never build herself back up again. There were times when Natalia thought she would just disappear into her own sorrow and anger, never to be seen again.
But God didn't leave her. Not then. And not now.
As she cries and sinks onto her bed, God is there. As she mourns that which she never had the chance to explore, God is there. As she ignores the calls and the banging on the door, God is there. As she tunes Olivia out and turns Olivia away, as she repeats the painful honesty in her head over and over... God is there.
When silence comes back to the farm-house, Natalia stares out at nothing.
You are here, aren't you, God? You haven't left me behind, have you? Did you forsake me? Is this my punishment? Or does the reason for this agony elude me? ...Is there a reason at all?
God is there. But God isn't answering.