Rating: PG-13 to start, for violence (non-sexual) and language. I am not any kind of a medical expert so if there are some glaring errors, please forgive me.
Disclaimer: I don’t own the Guiding Light characters, they belong to CBS and Proctor and Gamble.
Summary: This is set in the spring of 2009. I’ve taking some liberties with the storyline, mainly Natalia never slept with Frank, hence no engagement etc. So our girls have been just continuing forward raising Emma and getting closer to each other though they are still technically just friends, but that will change… This is a hurt/comfort story so they are headed on a rough ride.
Author’s Note: This is my first fan fiction so please be gentle. This would not have been possible if not for the persistent nudging and awesome editing of my beta/great friend croftlara. Comments are welcome.
( Part 1 ) ( Parts 2 & 3 ) ( Part 4 ) ( Parts 5 & 6 ) ( Part 7 ) ( Part 8 ) ( Part 9 ) ( Part 10 ) ( Part 11 ) ( Part 12 ) ( Part 13 ) ( Parts 14 & 15 ) ( Part 16 ) ( Part 17 ) ( Part 18 ) ( Part 19 ) ( Part 20 ) ( Part 21 ) ( Part 22 ) ( Part 23 ) ( Part 24 ) ( Part 25 ) ( Part 26 ) ( Part 27 ) ( Part 28 )
‘Sitting on the bench on the porch outside waiting. But she didn’t know for what. She just kept watching down the driveway to the road, waiting. To her right she saw her family playing catch with a football on the lawn. Emma squealed as Rafe tickled her when she caught the ball, causing it to drop to the ground. Ava ran over and picked it up and threw it to Natalia who fumbled at first but caught it. Olivia watched them as they laughed and teased. She saw Natalia turn to her and wave her over but Olivia was rooted to the bench. She could see the wrinkle appear in Natalia’s forehead that indicated that she couldn’t understand why Olivia wasn’t coming to play. Olivia struggled and struggled but she could not get up, she could not speak. Olivia could feel a pressure on her, almost holding her down. She still struggled to move from the bench, Natalia still waiting for her. The moment she’d taken her eyes from the driveway and the road, she’d missed the dark car turn and pull into the driveway. She heard too late the doors open and then two men exit the car. She could see that Natalia, Emma, Rafe and Ava didn’t notice the car or the men. Finding her voice, she screamed herself hoarse as she struggled and watched as the men approached her family. Danny and Brian, ‘Oh God’, Olivia recognized the men. They were bad men. In her mind she screamed, ‘RUN!’ Danny looked at Olivia and gave her a smirk before shaking his head. Her helpless family still couldn’t hear her. Olivia watched as the men continued to approach the unaware people, two guns appeared and it suddenly sounded like the Annual Bauer Fourth of July party, fireworks popping in quick succession. Natalia chest burst open with a spray of blood and bone and Olivia realized that these were not fireworks at all. ‘Natalia!’, her mind screamed as she struggled frantically against the invisible barrier that held her in place. She saw Ava grab a screaming Emma to shield her, Rafe run for his fallen mother, and the gunmen turn on him. ‘POP, POP, POP’ Rafe went falling to the ground inches from Natalia’s body. Olivia screamed and kicked at the barrier and the men who turned toward her girls. ‘NOOOOO!’
“Olivia! Wake up, it’s just a dream, you’re having a bad dream.” Reva had gotten up to use the bathroom, on her way back to bed she heard a noise coming from the spare room. Is that Olivia? I hope she’s not having another dream. Reva quietly entered the room to check on Olivia and saw the sleeping woman tossing and turning in bed with tears and sweat streaking her face and a hoarse voice crying out for Natalia.
Grasping Olivia’s shoulders Reva spoke louder and harsher than before, “Olivia! Time to wake up now, you’re safe here remember? Olivia!”
Olivia eyes snapped open and she struggled against the barrier that was now Reva’s hands on her. “Let me go! I’ve got to save Ava and Emma!”
Reva pulled her hands away like they had been burned as Olivia bolted upright and turned on the unsuspecting woman. “Where are they? What have you done with them? Did you take them, did you hurt them?” When no answer was forthcoming she spoke with venom dripping from her mouth, “I will kill you if you hurt my babies. Do you understand me? I will FUCKING KILL YOU!” Olivia raised her fists and started hitting Reva on the shoulder.
Reva stepped off of the bed and backed away with her hands held up in a defensive posture in front of her. “Olivia, stop! It’s Reva…”
“I know who you are, you’re the bitch who kidnapped my kid.”
Jeffrey chose that moment to come running into the room having heard the commotion. He turned on the lights, “What’s going on in here?”
Relieved to see Ava’s father Olivia begged him for answers, “Where’s Ava? Please Jeffrey you have to tell me where she is and if she’s okay. Is Emma with her?”
Jeffrey looked at Reva questioningly. Quietly Reva responded, “She hit me… she was having another nightmare and I shook her awake, she thinks someone is trying to hurt her kids.”
Olivia turned on Reva, “Shut up! You don’t get to speak, I’m talking to him now. Jeffrey, where is she?”
“Olivia honey, Ava is in San Francisco, she’s fine, I just talked to her today. And Emma is fine, you were with her earlier. Remember?”
Olivia’s heart was pounding and she was confused. “But they were coming for her.”
Jeffrey looked from Olivia to Reva and back, “Who was coming for her Olivia? In your dream?”
“They were going for my girls. Ava was protecting Emma but they were going for...” Olivia’s eyes darted around the room. “Did they hurt her? Jesus, they hurt her didn’t they? Oh my God!” She rose off of the bed to her full height and moved toward Reva, grabbing her shoulders she yelled while shaking the shocked woman. “You! Where is she? What have you done with her? Are you working with those men?”
Without warning Reva slapped the distraught woman hard across the face. Olivia stumbled back in shock while slowly reaching her hand up to cover her stinging cheek. What’s going on?
“Reva!” Jeffrey yelled, “She’s got a concussion.”
Reva stepped back while Jeffrey walked over to Olivia and put his hand on her back. “Olivia? Are you okay?”
Olivia spun on Jeffrey pinning him with her intense gaze. “Where’s my kid Jeffrey?”
“Olivia she’s with Jane. She’s safe.”
“But how do you know that?” Olivia started for the door, “I have to see her.”
Reva moved in front Olivia and calmly reminded her, “Honey, it’s very late, you can’t go rushing off to Jane’s. You’ll frighten Emma.”
“Outta my way Reva. She’s my daughter and I can see her any time I want to.”
Jeffrey intervened, hoping to talk some sense into the hysterical woman. “Olivia why don’t you lay back down and rest, I promise first thing in the morning I’ll take you to Emma.”
Olivia paused for a moment before shaking her head, “I have to go now.” It may be too late already. Olivia shook her head, still trying to get rid of the remnants of her dream. No…no she’s okay, I just need to see her to make sure, “Get out of my way or I’ll move you.”
From the doorway, Reva pointed out, “You can’t drive.”
Olivia yelled, “Then I’ll walk!” as she tried to push her way past Reva. To protect his wife and his friend, he grabbed Olivia’s arms. When the woman began to struggle he got concerned that she’d hurt herself. “Okay Olivia. Stop fighting me! I’ll take you to her.”
Olivia stopped, “Let’s go.”
Still in their pajamas, as Olivia wouldn’t stop and take the time to change, she and Jeffrey started for the car. “Call Jane, Reva and warn her that we’re coming,” he called back to his wife while Olivia stood at the car door, hitting the window to indicate that the door was locked.
After a tense drive Jeffrey and Olivia pulled up in front of Jane’s building. The car hadn’t even stopped before Olivia launched herself from it and ran toward the door. She buzzed Jane’s apartment but when it wasn’t immediately answered Olivia began pounding on the security door. “Open up! My baby is in there. Help!”
Having finished parking the car, Jeffrey came running to the door. “Olivia be quiet, you’ll wake the neighbours up.”
“I don’t care.” Olivia opened her mouth to start yelling again when the door buzzed and they were granted entry. Olivia ran to the elevator and pressed the button. When the elevator didn’t immediately appear, she looked around for and then found the door to the stairwell. With her hand on the door, Jeffrey ran to her and put his hand on her arm. “You can’t run up six flights of stairs Olivia.” Thankfully before Olivia could argue the point the elevator door could be heard opening.
When they arrived on Jane’s floor Olivia bolted from the elevator and started calling Emma’s name. Jane opened the door and before she could say a word, Olivia pushed past her and ran into the bedroom where her youngest daughter slept.
“Emma, you’re alive!” Olivia leaned down and took her daughter into her arms, kissing her and holding her tight while startling the poor child awake.
“Mommy? You’re hurting me.”
“Are you okay?” Olivia ran her hands all over the child looking for injuries.
Emma started to cry, “Mommy, what are you doing, I was sleeping.”
Olivia pulled back enough to see the tears streaming down Emma’s cheeks, while still maintaining a tight hold on the child, “I had to see you.”
Jeffrey and Jane entered the room. Having been instructed by Jeffrey to remove the child, Jane grabbed Emma while Jeffrey forced Olivia’s hands to loosen her hold on the upset little girl. Olivia yelled “No” and struggled when Emma was pulled from her grasp but Jane was able to get Emma into her arms. Emma hugged Jane’s neck as the nanny quickly disappeared from the bedroom.
“Olivia. You saw, right? Emma is fine.”
“Jeffrey,” Olivia warned, “I want her back, she’s all I have now that Natalia is gone.”
“What? Olivia you’re still thinking that your dream is real. Emma is fine, so is Natalia.”
Matter-of-factly Olivia told him, “No, Jeffrey you don’t understand, I saw them shoot her.”
Jeffrey guided Olivia to the bed and sitting them both down was careful not to make any movements that would upset the altered woman. “I promise you, what you saw was a dream, Natalia is in the hospital, we can call her, you can talk to her.”
Olivia just sat rocking back and forth muttering, “They’re gone, they’re all gone and I failed.”
Jeffrey pulled his cellphone from his pocket and he began dialing the number for the hospital. A few moments after speaking to the switchboard and having to explain why he was calling at such a late hour he was being connected with Natalia’s room. Three rings later it was answered and Frank’s sleepy voice came on the line, “Hello? Natalia Rivera’s room.”
“Frank? It’s Jeffrey, is Natalia awake?”
“Ah yeah I think so, just a sec.” Frank began to hand the phone over “Natalia, it’s Jeffrey.” Then Natalia’s voice could be heard on the other end. “Jeffrey, is something wrong?”
“Yes. I hate like anything to bother you so late. Olivia’s had a nightmare of epic proportions and quite frankly she can’t remember that you and Emma are okay, she’s very upset. We’re actually at Jane’s, she insisted we come to make sure Emma was safe. Could you speak to her for just a moment so she knows you’re fine?”
Oh Olivia. “Put her on.”
Natalia could hear Jeffrey trying to convince Olivia to take the phone. When it seemed like she wasn’t believing him she starting calling out to her, “Olivia? Take the phone. It’s Natalia.”
Olivia stopped rocking and looked at the phone, “Natalia?” She clutched it and put it to her ear. “Hello? Is that really you?”
“Olivia, yes, it’s me. You remember I’m in the hospital. I’m okay. You just left here a few hours ago. You’re staying with Jeffrey and Reva and you had a bad dream.”
“Natalia?” Olivia’s voice broke and she cried. “What’s going on? It was so real.”
Natalia’s eyes were now filled with tears, “Emma is safe and I’m right here, I’m talking to you, I’m okay and you’re okay too. I want you to settle down and just remember we’re all okay.”
The line was quiet for what seemed like an eternity before Olivia’s voice broke the silence, “Oh my God,” She looked around the room then her eyes settled on Jeffrey “oh my God.” Olivia began to get agitated now that she was becoming aware of her surroundings and the last vestiges of the nightmare slipped away. Her shaking hand rose to cover her mouth then she put the phone back to her ear, “Natalia, I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened. I was in a dream that I couldn’t get out of… I shouldn’t have woken you up.”
“It’s okay honey, just relax. Everybody is safe, it was just a bad dream.” Natalia could hear crying through the phone, “Don’t cry, it’s okay, Shhhh. It’s okay.” Natalia was at a loss. What else can I do? Please Olivia, stop crying. “Close your eyes.”
Olivia hiccupped, “What?”
“Just do it.”
“I’m putting my arms around you and hugging you. Nothing can hurt you now.”
Olivia cried while Natalia continued to speak softly through the phone, the words seemed to calm the upset woman until she could talk again, “Natalia I’m so sorry for this.”
“Hey, don’t be. I’m here for you, always, right?”
Olivia nodded her head, “Yep, you are.”
“Are you okay now?”
“I will be, you just go back to sleep, and I’ll see you tomorrow.” I’m so embarrassed, what’s wrong with me?
“I’ll see you first thing in the morning and we can talk more okay?”
Still fighting tears so not capable of speaking, Olivia simply answered, “’kay.”
“I love you Olivia.”
Squeezing her eyes shut to try and hold back the tears she knew were hiding she quickly responded, “Love you too, bye.” She ended the call an instant before she broke down. Jeffrey’s arms were quickly around her and she sobbed into him.
While Natalia handed the receiver back to Frank, she too began to cry for her damaged friend. Without a word, Frank cautiously took her hand and sat down in the chair while Natalia cried herself back to sleep, grateful that he had accidentally fallen asleep in the hospital room several hours before.
“Jeffrey what have I done?” Olivia cried into his shoulder.
“Hey everything’s okay, it’s all okay… Let me just go check on Emma. Will you be okay to stay here for a moment?”
Olivia nodded as Jeffrey took his phone back and got off of the bed and left the room.
Jeffrey did want to check on Emma but first he had a call to make.
“Dr. Bauer,” Rick’s sleep filled voice answered.
“Rick, it’s Jeffrey.”
Rick sat up in bed and turned on the light, “What’s wrong with Olivia?”
“She had some kind of nightmare and freaked out. We’re actually at Jane’s right now, she’s just scared the hell out of Emma and then we had to call Natalia to prove that she was okay too. Umm… Reva slapped her, you don’t think that would hurt her concussion any further, do you?”
“What’s her state of mind now?”
“She’s crying and upset but I think she understands that it wasn’t real, she’s aware of her surroundings. Talking to Natalia seemed to calm her down. Should I bring her to the hospital?”
“If she’s calmed down, I think trying to force her to go to the hospital will just add more stress. See if you can get her to rest but I want to see her in the morning for some tests.”
“Thanks Rick. I’m sorry I had to bother you with this.”
“Hey Jeffrey, don’t worry about it. We just need to keep her calm and get her resting.”
“I’ll do my best. Bye.” Jeffrey closed his phone before waiting for Rick to say goodbye. He crossed to Jane’s bedroom and knocked on the door while announcing who it was.
Jeffrey heard the sound of a lock disengaging then the door opened and Jane was standing there with Emma clinging to her side.
Jeffrey entered the room and picked Emma up, “I need to talk to you sweetheart.”
Emma was still sniffling and crying softly while Jeffrey sat down on Jane’s bed and put the child on his lap.
“Your mommy had a very bad dream tonight, it really upset her and all she could think about was seeing you. I’m sorry she scared you, she was so worried but she’s feeling much better now. Just a little bit sad that she woke you up and made you cry.”
Emma looked at Jeffrey and with one last sniffle asked “Didn’t you cuddle next to her and rub her back and sing to her?”
“When I have a bad dream mommy always cuddles in bed with me and rubs my back, and then she sings until I fall asleep.”
“No sweetheart, I didn’t try that, I guess I should have.”
Emma nodded, “Can I see mommy?”
Jeffrey stood up and carried the child back to the other bedroom. When he walked through the door he saw Olivia curled in a ball, her body shaking from sobs that she couldn’t seem to control. He put Emma down and watched as the child, now completely unafraid, walk over to her mother and climb in bed with her.
Olivia felt the bed dip slightly under the weight of the small child. She opened her eyes and found her daughter inches from her face. Her breathing hitched as she felt a delicate kiss on her cheek.
“Mommy, I’m sorry you had a bad dream. I’ll stay with you until you fall asleep.”
Olivia couldn’t trust herself to speak, lest she begin crying again. She simply opened her arms while Emma curled into her.
From Jeffrey’s position near the door he could hear a child’s voice singing. “You are my sunshine. My only sunshine…”
Jeffrey left the room to get a chair because he didn’t think it would be prudent to leave Emma alone with Olivia in case there was another nightmare. When he returned with the high backed leather computer chair Emma was softly snoring and Olivia was combing her fingers through her daughters’ hair. Neither of them said anything though Olivia was aware that he was in the room.
Oh my little Jellybean, I’m so sorry for scaring you tonight. I feel like I’m losing my mind. That dream…it follows me, I can’t escape it and every time I wake up with more and it’s harder for me to remember reality. Olivia exhaled a long breath and fought a yawn. I’m not going to scare you again, I promise, but I don’t want to leave you either. I’ll just stay awake here with you until morning.
Occasionally the leather chair would creak under Jeffrey’s movements or Olivia would shift to get more comfortable but the night passed quietly and slowly. Several times Olivia felt herself drifting only to stop herself from falling asleep by pinching her leg or shaking her head. The soft rhythmic breathing coming from the little girl in her arms tried so many times to lull her to sleep but it was that same breathing that reminded her of why she just couldn’t allow that to happen.
To be continued...