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Romeo and Juliet


Title: Act II - Mr. Brightside
Author: celt_apocalypse
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Pairing: JJ/Emily
Rating: M (to be safe)
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, not Criminal Minds, not The Killer's song
Summary: Like the classic Shakespearian play chroniclng the life, the love, and death of the two star-crossed lovers, this will track the evolving relationship of JJ and Emily, and wherever it leads to.
A/N: Also posted on FanFiction.net

“I’m coming out of my cage…And I’ve been doing just fine…Gotta gotta be down…Because I want it all…It started out with a kiss…How did it end up like this…It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss…”

Returning to Washington, DC, the center of politics and diplomacies was not what you always dreamed of. This was after all, where your mother got her start and all the drama in the family began. And now you’re back, but this time it’s worse because you’ve met someone who affected you more than your mother did. And you thought that was impossible.

Jennifer ‘JJ’ Jareau. The blonde FBI liaison that you worked with on a daily basis. Which only made everything worse. It was so hard to work and focus on catching a killer when her perfume was wafting its way into your senses, distracting you from getting into the criminal’s mind. How could you when all you can think about is how soft her hair must be, how it looks like strands of woven gold, how good her lips would taste…

And one day, you get what you most desire – her lips upon yours. It’s hurried, but passionate, tender yet rough. A part of you explodes and your true want for JJ comes pouring out of you and into that kiss. The kiss escalates, and you know it’s wrong, you’re at work but you can’t stop yourself now and you really don’t want to.

“Now I’m falling asleep…And she’s calling a cab…While he’s having a smoke…And she’s taking a drag…Now they’re going to bed…And my stomach is sick…And it’s all in my head…But she’s touching his chest…Now, he takes off her dress…Now, letting me go…”

Everything’s back to normal the next day, JJ was just your coworker and she was still engaged to Will and bearing his child. You wanted to hurt yourself, cursing yourself for your stupidity. You knew you should’ve controlled yourself around her better.

The team smiled at you as they all headed out for the day, Hotch reminding you to go home, get some rest. JJ just stared, you watched her arm rise slightly, as if to brush yours as she left, but you gave her pause by turning away. You didn’t turn back to see the hurt on her face, for then she would see the hurt on yours.

She’s going home to him.

“And I just can’t look it’s killing me…And taking control…Jealousy, turning saints into the sea…Swimming through sick lullabies…Choking on your alibis…But it’s just the price I pay…Destiny is calling me…Open up my eager eyes…Cause I’m Mr. Brightside…”

You instantly regret the harsh words you hissed at her when she tried to confront you in the bathroom, trying to make it better. You explained to her how it felt, at least you tried to. You felt your resolve weaken when it seemed like she would breakdown. You hated to see her cry. So you acquiesced, breaking your won heart instead of hers.

You remembering whispering as you left her there, “I’ll always be here for you Jennifer.” And you weren’t lying either, you would always be there for your friend, but you didn’t know how well you could compartmentalize your feelings for JJ now.

“I’m coming out of my cage…And I’ve been doing just fine…Gotta gotta be down…Because I want it all…It started out with a kiss…How did it end up like this…It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss…”

It had only been a few days since the kiss, but already knew your old compartmentalizing technique wouldn’t work this time, not when JJ was involved. You should have realized this wouldn’t be easy.

An eraser bounced of your forehead, “Ow hey! What the…?” You looked up and saw Reid and Morgan staring at you.

“You okay there Prentiss?” Morgan asked, stirring his coffee as he walked over to your desk.

“Huh? Yeah, I’m fine.” You stuttered out, shuffling the papers on your desk nervously.

“Riiiiight.” He drawled, winking at you. “C’mon, talk to me. I’m here for you Prentiss, you know that right?”

You nodded, smiling up at the handsome agent. “Thanks Derek.” He patted you on the shoulder as he walked back toward his desk.

“Oh me too Emily!” Reid piped up from across your desk. You smiled at his boy-like enthusiasm.

If they only knew. If you only had the courage to actually talk to someone about it. There shouldn’t be anything to talk about really. It was only a kiss.

“Now I’m falling asleep…And she’s calling a cab…While he’s having a smoke…And she’s taking a drag…Now they’re going to bed…And my stomach is sick…And it’s all in my head…But she’s touching his chest…Now, he takes off her dress…Now, letting me go…”

It used to be that a glass of wine at the end of a long day would help calm your nerves, to help you sleep better. Now it was a bottle of wine just to get your mind off of things at the end of the day. Nothing helped you sleep anymore, not when you knew who JJ was sleeping with.

It made you sick to think about them. All you wanted to do was break down her door, yank him off of her and whisk her away from it all. But realistically, you knew it would never happen.

She let you go; now it was time for you to do the same.

“Cause I just can’t look it’s killing me…And taking control…Jealousy, turning saints into the sea…Swimming through sick lullabies…Choking on your alibis…But it’s just the price I pay…Destiny is calling me…Open up my eager eyes…Cause I’m Mr. Brightside…”

At work the next day, you act like nothing is wrong, like nothing ever happened. You figured it out, compartmentalize, control yourself during the day; at night, you can let go and let the jealousy take over. You smile when you should, you add your two scents to the briefings, you play along with the show. You were always good at acting when you had to.

On the brightside, at least JJ wasn’t completely gone from your life. You were there for her when he couldn’t be, and that made a difference, you like to think. You like to think your bond with her was somehow stronger than his.

“I never...I never...I never...I never...”

But you still never got to tell her.

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